I felt the need to write to you to express all the things I can no longer say to you in person. It has taken years for me to fully realize the life I was leading back then.
The way people and circumstances change amazes me deeply. Through self-reflection, I’ve come to see clearly that my mindset and emotional capacity at the time weren’t ready to embrace someone like you. Letting go of my ego and breaking down my defenses felt unbearable to me then. Sometimes, we fail to see that our own selves stand in the way of our true potential and happiness.
I won’t say I’m sorry—not because I don’t feel remorse, but because I’ve said it so many times that it seems the word has lost its meaning. Instead, I want to express how deeply saddened I am that I chose the path I did. I want you to know how much I truly appreciate you. It was never your fault. Your worth is immense, and you are an extraordinary person—someone worth fighting for. I regret that I didn’t fight for you or show you how much you truly meant to me at the time.
Thank you for dreaming of a life with me, for teaching me to find joy in nature and within myself. Thank you for pushing me to grow and for challenging the subconscious patterns that held me back. I sincerely hope you find someone who treasures you as profoundly as you deserve—someone who will care for you in the way you cared for me.
If I could leave you with one last thought, it’s this: the time we shared, though imperfect, will always hold a place in my heart. I carry the lessons you taught me with gratitude, and I wish you nothing but love, happiness, and fulfillment in the life ahead.
With all my heart,
Alexandra Konstanti 
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